Oral cavities or "Yes Assmitten, I broke up with solid foods"

Well I've had this toothache for oh, I dunno 2 months now. It got REALLY bad last week to the point where my jaw was swollen. I looked like a friggin chipmunk. Not to mention I haven't been able to eat anything substantial in like 2 wks. Yogurt, pudding and broth do not a full belly make. The positive side is I've lost a fucking TON of weight.

So naturally the Butterfly offered to send me to his dentist to have my tooth pulled and naturally I refused his offer. I chose instead to "do this myself, leave me some pride please?" Off to the dentist I went on Friday.

Now let me explain a little about my relationship with dentists. There is none. Ok, I'm lying, yes there is a relationship - FEAR. My last visit to the dentist was 14 yrs ago when I had my wisdom teeth and two 3rd set of teeth removed. Prior to that it was maybe 10 yrs earlier. See, when I was little my father and I would sit around and watch tv and eat at least one bag of Oreos. I had fillings in my baby teeth. So for me, the dentist has always meant PAIN. No, I don't do dentists until I can't go on without seeing one.

You realize where this is heading, right?

Yep, dood wants $5780.00 AMERICAN to fix me up. Apparently my teeth are residing in a pool of pus, I have advanced gum disease, he wants to pull 3 of them and cement the ones left together so they have some support. Naturally 1/3 of that cost is the anesthesia - there is NO FUCKING WAY I will remain awake OR take a fucking needle in the gums.

So I'll just wait until all my teeth fall/rot out and get dentures eventually. I can't afford almost $6k for this. I can't even afford to do it in batches. Had my fucking LOSER boss not dicked me over with the insurance at least some of this would be covered and I could at least get the fucking tooth pulled. At least I got some antibiotics out of the deal. The infection has been disco dancing through my bloodstream for weeks now.

At least I'll get back down to a size 6 before the year is out.

Happiness is..being utterly bored

I can't begin to say how WONDERFUL it is to be utterly bored right now. There is no drama in my personal life - I can't say the same for my extended family - but I'm THRILLED to be completely bored.

My little container garden is flourishing - the spinach, beets and green onions are sprouting, still no carrots peeking up; I planted green peppers and hot peppers and got all my herbs. The cold snap the past few days is taking it's toll, have to see how they fare. My corn is germinating and I bought purple pansies (going with purple and gold this year) and planted black eyes susans. All in all, I'm quite satisfied with my little oasis outdoors and my Greenman is watching over it all. This past weekend was GORGEOUS and I actually fell asleep sitting out there on Sunday.

Unfortunately, those around me are falling to pieces. Kimmie is struggling with depression from all her medical problems, G-Mama is mourning the finality of nursing the little witchlet, H-Bomb is dealing with Mr. Toes needing surgery (he's 4) and AS USUAL son #3 has no interest whatsoever in working. Sadly I've told him I'm putting him out at the end of the month. I don't know what he'll do then.

Socks is..well he's overworked to the point of evil personified. Until today I've seen him all of 4 times in 2 weeks. Today he just flat out put himself in my hands and let me spoil him unmercifully. Poor thing.

I've also finally gotten around to (yet again) throwing away shit I don't need or don't use. It never ceases to amaze me how much of the Dead Husband's shit I kept. Ah well, it's a process I suppose.

I like this boredom. It's nice to be able to do and worry about NOTHING.

Danger, Will Robinson!

i am posting all kinds of fucked up. I'm not kidding. I haven't been this crispy in years.

We are "living better through chemicals" - klonopin to be specific.

We are indulging in the "fruit of the vine" - red and white.

We are partaking of one of the "natural" herbs - bongs ftw!

Our BFF came over and well, damn.

I had never tried klonopin - my BFF has a lifetime supply - and well FUCK YEAH! This shit is like 'ludes without the inevitable downer. Unfortunately, the vino feelings and effects are now an overlay of the MAJOR FUCKING MELLOW you get from the klonopin. The weed just gave me the munchies and an overwhelming desre to crash.

I've always been more of a pothead than a drinker. But this chem is DA BOMB!

Yeah, the chemicals need to stand alone. This shit is light years from valium.